Love And Affection

Second day of the week… it has been a good morning so far since I lost my bb… the environment in the office is still the same if not good then better, the workload is still the same pretty much where there are tons of work to be done… I have very good pair of eyes where I can see changes happen! Do you know what I mean? It means that I can notice the changes that any person made to themselves.

The very little things in other people eyes can be very big things in mine. Such as a simple haircut where most people tends to just ignored it or just let it pass by and not stick into their brain. And for me, this kind of habits is a blessing where it shows that I am someone who really cared about other people. Let’s get to the point where I started to brag about this habit of mine. There is a colleague of mine, here name is Wendy, and I notice that she cuts her hair yesterday. It looks nice on her and I asked he if she cut her hair or not (as in the dialogue)

Me: Wendy, you cut your hair ah?

Wendy: Ya Ya, why is it?

Me: Oh, nothing, just that you look nice in it. J

Wendy: (Tapping my shoulder) Wahhh thank you thank you, u like coffee ah? I treat u a cup of coffee      later lah… its very good. I like it… hope u like it too. 

Me: Thank you Wendy…

That is what I have been doing throughout my entire internship, looking at peoples, and seeing through, all those sort of little things that happens in life. Some people tend to irritate other while some are doing their own business without even bother on what happens to other.  Here I just want to bold and highlight that even a little thing can change someone’s attitude towards us. It shows that we do care about that person and we are giving them the attention that they need as a person and human beings that have feelings and affection.

We don’t have to be too observant towards other, but it is not wrong to show to people that we care and love them. As long as it does not bother the people around us and they are comfortable with us. Some will not give the same reaction as Wendy where they will thought that we are too busybody and always picking their nose just to bother them. Not all will give a good reaction because people are different. Even the hair is all the same but the heart is not. Bear that in mind, because there are people who will get hurt when you are saying things without considering the fragile heart of that person. If it was me, I can easily get upset but it’s just for a few hours. Is that long? Hahaha, well, I just need to calm myself before getting upset and scold that person. It is for the sake of our friendship.

Do use the golden rule “Do unto others what you want them do unto you”. This is a good phrase to use and make a principal of since it is the fundamental things that we, human wanted to be treated as. If you treated people badly, do you really think that they will treat u back nicely? Of course they don’t! This world is harsh and cruel. To be able to keep on surviving is by using our mind properly and with knowledge that can help us go through hard times.

We might encounter some people that are very rude and some that is very kind and polite, it is just the way people are. We cannot expect them to be very nice to us since they got their own personality. Simply changing other people won’t give us any advantage and do not think it as a problem but think of it as an opportunity. Use our head and think of how to deal with such people and think ahead of them, plus, it won’t hurt if we are being nice to them even if they are not very nice to us. Just like what I’d said earlier about people won’t treat us nice when we ourselves didn't treat them nicely. But certain cases where people are going to get their ego down just for the sake of the relationship, this is when love is involved.

Love is universal, so it’s not just between lovers; man and women, but also between family, friends and even animals. When I said it involved love, what I meant is that when we love someone, we will tend to get comfortable with them and forget the basic of being a human being. We tend to ignore the simple things and that simple things are actually the reason that can cause some problems. Sometimes we need to rethink and regret what we have said or done to the people we loves as it will lower or bring down our ego and this will lead to good things in the future.

Some people are too stubborn to admit their fault, and keep on blaming it to the other party. This kind of people is actually a good person; it is just that they are being strong in the presence of other people. We must understand on why they are acting like that. We may know them but we didn’t know what they have gone through in their life. Maybe they have experienced some bad things that forced them to build some wall between their selves onto others. So before we judge we must know what they have gone through their life. We might be surprise if the outcome of knowing the truth will do to us.

Sekian sahaja utk kali ini… btw, ni gambar dinner tadi utk majlis farewell kak tini n kalai, di Bangsar Shopping  Centre (Dancing Fish Restaurant)

Kali Terakhir Aku Menyentuh mu....

10 May 2013…. It’s a date where I really cant forget.. the day started as early as 4am in the morning, I woke up earlier than that, my love called me in 3.30am just to help me awake to do my thesis… its was lovely of Mok… I loved u so much… Well, it was in the midst of an early morning and a half-awake body and mind of mine.. i think that this was the first time after so long that i woke up this early since i'm doing my internship worrying bout my thesis rather than finishing up my work in the office

Later That night, I tried to finished what I can with all my might as I didn’t even do anything for my research for the past few month… well, it was great living in new environment which is in Kuala Lumpur, the city that never sleeps as what people r telling me… the city that where people chase their dream and started new life, opening new page of the book you know.. and for me, it was a good chance for me to see the world before my own eyes… and the best things is I can see Mok every day, well, almost every day… hahaha…

Enough with the chit chat… let’s get to the point here, **continuing to the latter one, okay, now, while reading the journals and complaining myself of how stupid I am not to do the work while I have tons of time rather than doing it the very last minute, it struck me that I REALLY CAN DO WORK IN PRESSURE MUCH BETTER but, this is NOT A GOOD THING!

Tick tock tick tock n it was 6am already… well I have to be happy with what I have come up with my research… eventhough it was not finished… hahaha… I have my mental ready to be scold n bash by my advisor (no need to mention her name)… the sun starting to rise up and showering its light upon half of the world, and in my case it is in Melaka… Apartment Yayasan Melaka to be precise… when the time comes for me to start the car engines, my heart pumps like it’s going to burst out of my chest, and at that very moment I was praying to God and hoping that the day will be great and good..

I started driving from Melaka city to Alor Gajah just to meet my lovely advisor.. I know that I’ve arrived at 8.26am, well I like to be early as the appointment was supposed to be at 9am.. so I waited and waited until 10.15am like some looser and loner in the hallway… well it was sucks but I know I have to wait until she comes and scolded me for not doing my work when I was given the time.. lets skipped the boring details and the meeting was adjourned at 1.10pm later… well one thing that u should know that she did scolded me n all of us but we have to do what we have to do… but she didn’t get mad at the point I imagine she would, and for that I was happy and relieved.. :p

**Continuing my way back to Melaka City and of course skipping the Friday Prayers… (Now don’t judge me okay)**

After I parked the car (that’s belonging to my good friend Adan) I straight going up to his room and packed my belongings and getting ready to go to Melaka Central (MC) to go back to Batu Pahat (my home town). I did manage to charged my blackberry for a few minutes before he(Adan) sends me to MC, and off we go… now this is getting interesting, as soon as he dropped me in front of MC, I waved at him good bye and I realize that something was wrong! Damn Wrong!!!!!

** I lost my blackberry, and panic started to come and gets the better of me… **

I tried to call adan and asked him whether I left my blackberry in his car or even in his room, and he said after checking it through that “takdelah, I try cari lagi” i really panicking and sad at the same time…. It was purely my fault… I tried to call my celcom number that is in the blackberry.. (T__T) sumpah terasa macam nak nanges time tu… semua ade dlm tu, emails penting, gambar, video, phone number, documents, my thesis, and the most important things of all is my INTERNET!!!!

Sepanjang menungu bus utk ke balik ke BP, aku hanya mampu duduk diam n merenung kembali kesalahan aku, tulah, lalai dan clumsy… aku try utk call balik no aku tu, utk 3 kali call masih dpt then bila da masuk yg ke 4 trus masuk voicemail… mmg sgt2 lah sedih… tak sampai setahun kot aku pakai bb tu… bulan 9 ni baru nk masuk setahun… time tgu bus mmg aku hanya mampu mendiamkan diri n tahan airmata aku dari mengalir… I know, its just a phone, but this is a phone that I loved and full of my memories… tp yg agak menariknya, sebelum aku kehilangan bb aku tu, aku sempat update status kat fb, and itulah kali terakhir aku dpt pegang bb kesayangan aku… (T__T)

*in the bus*

Mamat sebelah aku ni pulak pakai bb, sepanjang perjalanan 2 jam ke bp tu aku asyik dgr bunyi2 bbm n fb dia je, mau tak sedih bile aku dgr sume sound tu bila aku punya sound da takde… sangat menahan perasaan dalam bus tu, tahan air mata dari keluar… tahan segalanya.. n kalau boleh aku nk meraun sekuat hati time tu… tp apakan daya, bende dah berlaku..

Well… mmg takde rezki lah utk aku kekal ngn bb tu… takpelah… maybe I can get a new one when I’m working nanti… hope aku tak lalai n clumsy lagi next time aku ade phone… well then, lupe nk cakap, da lama aku tak update blog… wauu… nmpknye kehilangan phone ni, mmg buat mood menulis aku keluar semula.. :P

that's why you go away...

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head


I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head


Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

2.1.13 --> kali kedua di luka kan..

jujur dalam hidup nie, cume 2 org yg betul2 aku cinta yg berjaya buat hati aku tertarik untk berkapel n mempunyai harapan yg tinggi dengan mereka...

seorg adalah first couple aku yg mana dye adalah seorg student accounting di uitm kbm tempat yg sama aku belajar kite panggil dye H... berjumpa dye tuk kali pertama adalah pabila dye muncul di hadapan screen computer aku di salah satu social networking yg ada haha ape lagi FB lah [and another one]. seperti biasa aku mmg suke org yg LEBIH TUA dari aku so dngn harapan dye dapat pegang tangan aku n bimbing aku.. mule2 seperti kapel2 bese, ktorg set the rules n condition yg perlu dlm sesebuah relationship, so aku pon dgr lah n setuju ngn condition memasing.. dye nk aku paham yg dye bz, fine by me, aku lak nk, atleast 1 hari 1 mesej dr dye... tuh jer yg ktorg nk... n dengan sweet nye dye cakap ngn aku, "i nk kasih sayang kita ni seperti benih pokok yg i tanam n u kene siram hari2, jage dye supaya dye[cinta] ley membesar n kukuh walau ade angin taufan yang melanda", god.... that is so ROMANTIC n just whut i want.... tp sayang selepas sebulan lebih, dye dah tak wat ape yg aku nk that is to text me, furthermore, dye hanya cari aku ble dye ade problem, sepertinya aku ni just tempat meluahkn masalah... plus yg wat aku geram, dye ckp bz tp kwn aku nmpk dye selalu kuar ngn kwn2 dye n ade masa tuk dorg... aku cube paham tp nmpknye TAHAP PEMAHAMAN AKU HANYALAH KECIL JER.... tak mampu nk paham n puaskn hati sume org.. so aku mintak timeout so ktorg ley settle baik2... dye janji nk berubah, tp dah 3 mgu aku bagi masa n takde perubahan, last2 gaduh kat FB n BREAK....

now the second person yg berjaya buat aku JATUH CINTA n TERBUKA HATI tuk kapel lagi is seorg manusia yg berumur 29 tahun n kite panggil dye R, jumpe biasalah di FB, n kisahnye baru jer lagi kottt.. sgt baru.. lebih kurang 5 hari jer termasuk hari ini.. first kenal is ble dye subscribe kat aku n komen pic aku ngn komen "kapel ekh?", aku ckplah bukn tu kwn bek aku jer, knpe? , wahh dye balas ape tau "jeles....." ... ok, time tuh aku dah bingung, sebb kawan bek aku tuh hot, tak mcm aku so aku punye lah ingt dye nk tackle kawan bek aku tuh, so aku tak layan lah......... hahah...

tertibe, ade fren request, n aku just accept lah... n dye IM aku n start lah berbual pada jam 2pagi yer.. heheh... yg menariknye dye berjaya wat aku menangis first time chat, ktorg try to skype, fb video call n ym, tp seems ade problem pagi tuh tak tau knpe, so last invite webcam kat ym jer haaha.. bual punye bual, tertibe dye amek phone n mintak number aku n trus call aku on the spot smbil ktorg tgk diri masing2 di screen cmputer yg tak brape nk terang tuh... ok, suara sangat2 best... dye petah berkata2... bnyk yg dya ckp kat aku, DYE BACA SUME STATUS N KOMEN KAT FB AKU DARI FIRST TIME AKU WAT FB SMPAI SEKARANG, yelah kat FB aku gune timeline so ley r baca nk wat camtu.. aku sgt terperanjat oke.. sape tak terperanjat n aku tnye ble mase awak ade mase tuk baca sume tuh? dye cakp "am using it now to call u" , terpingga2 aku n baru aku prasan its a BB.. hahah.. then dye cakp, CAN U STOP BEING FAKE? ok, itu lagi lah aku terperanjat kan? tertibe ade org ckp stop being fake... aku tnye fake ape? dye ckp "STOP PRETENDING THT U R STRONG!" haaa.. hamek ko... org yg tak kenal aku tertibe ckp camtu kat aku tru phone.. terus aku start menitiskn air mata... dye ckp dye ley nmpk most of my pic ble ngn kwn2 senyuman aku agak palsu seolah2 aku bertahan tuk dorg... ok time tuh aku dah betul2 JATUH HATI... [its called falling in love becuz we can't predict when we are gonna fall for sumone isn't it rite?] ... dye wat aku berjanji pada malam tuh tuk jgn tinggalkn dye walau ktorg hanya kwn... hari berlalu ngn ktorg selalu IM n post w2w... tp, ble aku tak dgr ckp dye, dye agak marah n stop IM, aku punye lah sedih n takut, aku selalu send msj mintak maaf, tp dye ckp, tertibe hilang chemistry n dye ckp dye lebih marah ble ckp ngn aku... ok, aku tau dye mintak aku letak dye as no 4/5 in my life, sebb bagi dye 1. family, 2. education, 3. frens, 4 or 5 baru lah lover.. tp disebbkn dye org KEDUA yg berjaya wat aku JATUH CINTA then mmg lah aku letak dye no 1... tp sume tuh dah tak gune dah smpai last2 pagi tadi jam 3.13pagi ble aku cek fb, skype n ym, account dye dah takde kat situ sume... aku text terus, aku tnye adakh ngn unfren aku bermaksud dye tanak aku lagi dah... dgn selmba dye ckp, i had enuf dramas n emo sessions... so as to me 2012, either people go with my flow or they can just F off.. i got no more room for dramas n emo sessions. its better to be unfren than being blocked, u put num 1, i asked to be num 4/5.. u think bout it urself, well itu lah serbe sedikit tentang hubungan cinta yg tak kemana yg aku rasa....

sumpah aku nangis semalam ble dye ckp camtu... aku tau aku mude tp dye yg approach aku n dye jugak yg wat aku sedih cmni... tp aku takkn benci or lupekan ex aku nie.. sbb dorg adalah org yg berjaya menakhluki hati aku yg aku jaga selama ini...

well ni jerlah tuk entry kali nie.. owh ya, lupe lak, azam taun ni nk update blog kalo ley tiap hari sekali or lebih pon takper.. heheh... >.<

1.1.12 --> makan di umbai for the first time~!

heeeeeee blog di update lagi hehehe... ;)

entry kali ni is about for the first day of 2012 man!! it 1st January of 2012 man!!! ktorg g makan kat umbai, makan seafood td beb, ikan siakap 3 rasa, ikan siakap bakar, kupang masak chili, udang butter... nyummyyyyyyy.... seyes sedap... plus aku minum air kelapa beb.... lama dah tak minum air kelapa tuh...

untunglahh org belanja sebb takde duit n dpt lak makn sedap2 hehehe.... sayang kawan2 aku ath and nisha n not to mention my bff awang famezan... >.< saya <3 kamu semua!! ngee~~

lupe nk bwk kamera td time g sebb tak plan langsung korunk tau tak, mule2 g kat tempat len then tempat tuh tutup, g lagi ke second place and again ikan abes last2 haaa amek kao , g umbai terussssss... naseb bek puas hati heee... smbil2 makan sambil2 cuci mater lerrr ngeee... :P

insyaallah aku de duit t nk ajak parents aku n family aku g sne hehe.. love u guys so much.. tgh2 update blog nie tertibe phone bunyi n my dad call, angkat call tp takde org jawap, kompem lah tertekan tuh.. hee. ape2 pun selamat malam kengkawan!! <3

NO MORE FACEBOOK

lame benar rasanye tak update blog aku nie... mmg lame gile... aku hnye akn update ble aku dah benar2 boring n takde mende nk wat...

entry kali ini is becuz aku baru jer DEACTIVATE aku nye FACEBOOK... hehee... mau tau knpe? sebb kat fb sgt bnyk masalh yg telah timbul... masalh kwn, maslh family, mslh tempat tinggal, n paling penting MASALAH RUMAHTANGGA a.k.a. CINTA...

aku betul2 suke kat dye tp dye just buat aku cam budak2 jer... mmg jarak umur ktorg berbeza jauh guk, dye 29, aku 21... tak lah jauh sgt kan?? dye org kedua yg berjaya bukak hati aku... aku tak tau kenapa... tp aku betul2 sayang kat dye... tp dye selalu marah aku akhir2 nie sbb aku bnyk tnye... ermm.. ntah lah... aku tau r dye bz, tp aku just tnye jer kot, buknnye marah pon... last2 dye ley ckp, "i'am getting more upset than ever, n i think the chemistry is lost between us... between us in not doing so well, so let give ourself some space..." . aku takley nk wat ape dah... aku try berbaik tp dye semakin marah ngn segala tindakan aku, even aku just tnye jer kot... now aku dah deactivate fb aku so biar lah... dye nk marah ke ape, asal aku bahagia... lagipun aku dah nk final exam nie... so better aku focus on my final hehe.. wish me luck!!!

the newly born me... :)

basically the title of this entry is not even related to the things i wanna share here,,, having frens from facebook's or twitter is not entirely fun things to have...

based on my experience, frens from fb is just for fun and just to kill time when we r bored.. we never actually meet them in person aside than via internet or just using a skype or ym... we prefer to add or have lots of fren just to let people know that we r famous, there's even 5000 fren list for a certain person eventhough he or she is not an artist, singer or even an actor... just by having a good profile picture can let u be fren with almost anybody in fb social network...

there is a different phase or facebooking in fb,

1) is when that particular person is a guy and his fren is made up from mostly guys, and thats mean he is very good looking and the guys or "guys" like him very much....

2) is when a gurl having a lot of fren list that is just because she like to add and accept people just like that, having a thought of "owh, there are people adding me, i must be famous" or "there are actually adding me as their fren?? well pity him then i'll just accept it just to increase my fren list"...

3) third one is mostly bout wanting to have a lot of connection from all over the world or even just from where we were born ...

from all of the deduction that i stated above, i do think that i fall under the 3rd one where i wanted to have connection where ever i might be,,, u see, networking is really important in making a living or to search for help... its not just to show popularity and how hot u r, but to have real connection between them...

i do know that sometimes having a lot of connection is not very good when they cant help u at the time they r needed,,, its kinda sad but we must take a risk ya know... providing that this is experience and just about having funs... as a student myself, this is good cuz the more connection i have the more knowledge i can gather and gain.. :)

well its just my opinion.. its up to u to think whut is best for i will not come up with a conclusion... so sit back, relax and think bout it... :) cheers...

enjoy bersame batch for the last time..

erm... dah lame tak update blog nie.. time nk update mesty ade hal..

harini dpt guk update heheh.. semalam g kuar reramai kat melaka ngan batch part 6 DIN,, best giler... kuar mkn reramai kat RESTOREN SERI MELAKA yg tak sedap toe n borink.... mknn dye tah pape jer... sakit aty aku nk kunyah daging masak merah dorg erkkkk.....

makan tak sedap, suasane muram hahah... takper asal dpt kuar ngan geng2 sume.... smbil makn mesty lah snap picture kan?? keharusan dlm suatu event... nk dijadikn profile pic lah katenye....

abes mkn g r kat MINI EYE ON MELAKA toe... perghh ktorg pakse lecturer kitorg nek boat yg kedepan kebelakang toe... ntah ape tah namenye... hahahah perghhhhh seram siot... tangan, kaki, perut sume kaku n tak terasa pun ade mende2 toe attach kat badan nie hahhaahhaa....

yg tak boley blah, lecturer toe dah lah lelaki then menjerit2 lak n hampir lah nk pengsan hahaah kelakar gile kot tgk hahha....

then ktorg g lah karaoke kat MAHKOTA PARADE ... perghhh dak2 sume sporting gile kot.. hahaha aku ley nyanyi lagu, PUDAR, WHEN I GROW UP, PUSPA, WANNABE n macam2 g hahaha... :)

lastly ktorg balik.... time kat umah toe dah kol 3 pagy kot kalo tak silap ade lak seko BABI HUTAN yg sesat kat dpn umah.... uissshhhhhhhhh geli giler n dak2 umh jerit WEI BABI WEI, kuat2.... mcm tak penah tgk hahah...

haruskah aku rasa bersalah??

perlu ke aku rase bersalah ngan diri aku ini?? pabila aku melakukan sesuatu yg tak patut dilakukan oleh insan biasa?? ermmmm sakitnye haty bile memikirkn ape yg semua org ckp kat aku... bukan nye aku tak nk amek kesah ape yg dorg ckp cume aku nie bukannye manusia yg maksum or perfect!!

setiap hari mestylah aku ader wat salah n dosa even sekecil kuman,,, aku tahu akn kesalahan n dosa yg aku buat n aku insafi diri aku setiap malam sebelum tidur, ade korunk tau?? korunk yg hanya menuding jari pada aku n mengeluarkn kate2 kesat korunk kat aku, ingtlah bahawasanye aku juge manusia biasa seperty kalian, melainkn korunk anggap diri korunk toe sempurna sgt...

nk tegur boley tp secara berbudi bahasa lah, ini tak, men serbu jer, n macm lah aku nie berdosa besar wat mende toe, aku still ade agama lagi lah weyh... satu lagi, ko tu lebey mude dari aku, 2 tahun mude, jgn nk tunjuk2 n tuding2 jari kearah aku sambil bercakap ngan ton kurang hajar ko tu,..

sebenarnye bile ko pikir balik, ape salah aku?? ker ko jer menyalahkn aku sebb nk tutup malu ko... takper r.. aku trime jerk ngn haty yg terbuke just nk dijadikn pengajaran jerk lam hidup aku yg tak sempurna nie...

bermain dengan api...

pabila aku bermain dengan api, maka bertmbh besarlah api itu... boleh pulak? hahha takder r, sajer jer letak tajuk camtu koz nk bagi hangat sikit entry kali ni...

ermmm, nk story kat cini yg aku ni dah cam org gile kot sebb sorunk manusia nie yg bergelar kekasih, erk bekas kekasih,,

dye nie selalu wat aku terpikirkn dye n tringat dye, tp dye mesty akn terlalu bz tok menghantar even one message pun kat aku bile aku mesej... sumtime dye akn suh aku kol dye,, pergh aku ckp ko bhai, maxis ke celcom mahal bhai.... aku kol n dgr suare lunak dye,,, perghh cair bhai... then dye panggil aku ~syaiful sayang~ aku trus, yer~~~ hahha... then so on... asyik2 mcm toe...

then bile masuk topic whut u do today, have u eaten ur dinner?, miss me?, sorry morry segale sume jadi kabur bagi aku... aku rase cam aku tak bersedia lagi nk bergelar kekasih seseorg...

nk ckp aku nie tak romantic erm boley tahan guk ayat yg aku kc, nk ckp tak rety tunjuk kasih syg memg aku tak rety, sebb aku tak penah ckp AKU CINTA PADAMU pun kat dye..

dye jer yg slalu ckp camtu kat aku... erkh... ayat tu adalah ayat yg aku akn gune time aku kawin jer... taknk gune skg, t takder nikmat nyer... gune time malam pertama r bhai baru r ade feeling... huk3 brangan lebey... :P

to me, it is a sacred sentence yg akn menjamin kebahagiaan aku n aku taknk ckp mende toe banyak kali kepada org yg berbeza... sebb aku bkn jenis yg suke nk men2 kn aty org nie.. even kat status fb aku ckp scandalious lah aper lah itu hanyalah perasaan haty jer tak pernah berlaku pun...

but the best part kn, aku n c dye nie sgt jauh jaraknye, jumper pun tak penah, cume ritoe plan r nk book tiket tok jumpe dye bulan 8 nie tp aku break lak ngan dye mlm aku nk book tiket toe... haaha aku tak tau nape or sebb sebenar aku break... maybe sebb aku tersedar yg aku tak ready lagi tok bercinte.. alasan yg sgt bodoh kan??

well that the truth n whut really happens to me.. skg nie just single n hanya focus on my family... just one day i hope i'll be ready n able to say those immortal word's SAYA CINTA AWAK...

sakit it anugerah tuhan... :)

hye guys... agak lame guk tak update blog nie... bkn ape, tp bz memanjang hik3... ermmm nk cite kat cini, dlm diary electronic n changgih nie yg penulis blog nie jatuh sakit hahaha... sian kat aku yg sakit nie.. tp bkn teruk pun just demam + batuk + seseme... masuk hari ni dah 4 hari aku jatuh sakit...

yg bestnyer, aku tak g clinic or even take proper medicine pun... hahah sebb punye lah pemalas nk gerakkn badan yg sengal2 n lenguh2 nie ke clinic tok jumpe para cendekiawan yg bergelar DOKTOR.... hahhaah.... time sakit ni aku banyak belajar tentang kehidupan ku yg sebelumnya samar2 sekarang sudah terang lagikn bersuluh pulak.... :)

first thing yg aku belajar is

1) BILA KITA SAKIT, BERJAUHAN NGAN FAMILY, JANGAN HARAPKN KWN UTK JAGA OR EVEN TAKE CARE OF OURSELF....

bukannye sume kwn yg kite ade nie sumenye baik2 sgt.. kalau nk tau kwn kite tu kwn sejati ker tak memg lah kene tgk time kite sakit n ape reaksi dye... huishhh kalo kwn aku sakit kan?! aku jage n tnye mcm2 kottt, for example is ko dah mkn? nk aku blikan makann?? ade ubat tak?? nk g clinic tak?? and etc.

saje je nk tnye keadaan kwn kite yg tgh sakit tue kan, t kalo kite sakit dye ley tlg tengok2 kite balik... :)

hakikatnye terbalik lak... uishhh3... hampeh... sgt menyakitkn haty ble terkenang kembali peristiwe 2 ary lepas... sedih pun ade guk, SENTAP lah paling banyak... :(

aku bukan nk ko jage aku sgt tp at the very least ko tnye n amik berat lah sal aku.. kalo takat tnye cam nk taknk jer bek takyah.. hahaha well thats whut happened to me.. just tnye n blah camtu jerk... :)

2) BILE DAH SAKIT TU JGN MALAS SGT NK KE CLINIC... :)

hehehe aku nie sejak lahir smpai lah skrg, mmg fobia kalo g clinic or hospital... tak tau kenape tp memg sgt sgt sgt fobia... bukan aku takley g tp mesty akn teringt kembali time aku xcdent time umur 6 taun dulu... perghhh kalo ingt balik, kaki belah kanan aku nie hampir putus jerk... takutttttttttttt.... :'( sampai sekarang pun kalo ujan n petir sabung menyabung memg terase lah kat kaki aku tu....

g clinic toe bagus sebb kite nk kn ubt n nasihat dokter so kite akn cepat sembuh... tp kan kalo kes macam aku nie, selagi aku tak teruk selagi tu aku malas nk g... hek3.. well old habit die hard kan???

kalo aku kat umh nie, mesty my mum n dad akn pakse aku g clinic n dorg akn teman lah masuk lam clinic smbil berdepan ngan doctor. hahahah memg malu lah jwpnye hik3...

3) SAKIT TAK SAKIT KERJE TETAP KERJE...

haaaa ni lah lesson yg paling hardcore aku blaja... ko sakit ker ko sehat ker kerje tetap kerje, jgn ingt sebb ko sakit org len nk kisah n kesian kat ko.. len r kalo ko nk maty hahah.. boley??? kerje group, kerje individu, n macam2 lagi lah... banyak seyh kerje sebagai seorg student ni kan??? nek menyampah lak aku ngadap lappy kesayangan nie wat keje... hahah (dlm mimpi jerk).... well, nk wat camne... nk taknk kne lah wat walau sikit2... time kepala tak pening toe p dok bace document yg kene di summarize kan hahah then bertmbh pening lagi trus amek ubat batuk n tidor hahah... gile heaven time tido toe tp tak terpikir lak keje toe nk kene hantar ahhahaa... arghh lantakkn!!

tp kengkwn jgn ikut saye tau, saye nie pemals hahah tak elok untuk kesihatan... :P

4) DPT JUMPE KWN DUNIA AKHIRAT BLE JATUH SAKIT... :)

ermm yg nie aku suke nk ckp... sebb ade lah one of y bestie yg amek berat sal aku time sakit nie... hik3.. terase cam ade my mum kat sebelah jer hek3.. even umah dye jauh dari umah aku n berlainan jantina, sanggup dye blikan air hundred plus tok aku time ujan lebat lak toe.. rase sgt terharu sgt... :) tq SHAKILA ANURA ROSLI N HUSZ hehhee.... sayang korunk sesangat (taknk sayang org yg menyakit kn haty toeee)...

last but not least is the greatest lesson that i've learned...

5) WHEN WE SICK, THATS MEAN WE'R ALIVE N BEING TESTED BY GOD ALMIGHTY...

selagi kite mampu merasa kesakitan itu, bermakna kita masih hidup n masih diberi anugerah untuk merasakn kesakitan itu... cube bayangkn kalo kite tak rase sakit langsung even kite sebenarnye sakit, tak ke pelik n sumtin wrong kat citu?? hehe...

tp memg bile kite sakit nie, tuhan sedang menguji hambeNYA samada dye mampu ato tak n mengingati tuhan ato tk... tp kebanyakan org akn ingt TUHAN ble dia sakit, time sehat tkder lah nk ingt hik3... (peringatan tok diri sendiri guk)

so marilah kite sume jatuh sakit?? hahah takder r, semoge kite sume sehat2 belaka hendaknye... AMINNN...

well guys, thats oll that i wanna share in this post... wait n c for the next n exiting post from me,,. have a great sunday evening olls.. :)

new beginning

yosh!!! ganbatte minna-san ~~~

memang terbaek, semalam kitorg g ke mc tok cari fillings for sebi's shisha.. then dah g tutup lak mc toe.. tak tau nk watpe g lah melepak kat kedai cempaka yg kat sebelah bank islam toe.. tgh tgu2 ader lak sorunk acik ni g ke arah kedai yg hujung nie n tetibe jer ktorg dgr dyer mrh2... isyhh takder salam takder aper trus2 marah2... pelik n herann... ~~~

then the best part is that acik yg kene serang toe pulak menjerit.. ko nie kenape?? aku tak penah kacau ko kenape ko nk kacau aku??? perghh menjerit punye r kuat.... tak mcm rmi lak kan customer dyer time to n ktorg kat kedai laen yg agk jauh guk tp still ley dgr kot... sungguh menarik n menakutkkn... itulah org kite, budaya dengki mendengki nie memg dah sebati ngan org MELAYU...

hate it very2 much... n kalo tak silap aku, acik penyerang nie dyer antar tikus kot kat kedai acik penjerit nie hahahha... pergh seyes dah gieler kot acik penyerang toe.. ader terdengr makcik tokey yg pat ktorg lepak toe kate acik penyerang toe dah 2 3 kalo wat camtu... ape cer??? aku tak tau sgt so malas nk wat tuduhan tak berasas... just wat deduction jer r...

n my deduction is that acik penyerang jeles ngan perniagaan acik penjerit n wat camtu sebb nk halau acik penjerit toe.. kalo itula kesnyer mmg bodoh lah acik penyerang toe... biar r, itu kan rezeki dyer... tak ghety nk bersyukur langsung... tak pahm2... isyhhh...

then sejurus kejadian toe, ajim dtg... so ktorg melepak r sesame... dgr citer dyer segale n ktorg pun mahu bergerak pulang setelah jam 12.30 pagi hahaha... bapak lame ktorg g melepak kan>?/

tp yg best is ktorg pat gossip baru hihihi... tp gossip toe takley letak kat cini bahaye... biar r kami jer yg tau... :(

jalan yg kami pilih untuk pulng ke INTEKMA GARDEN is jalan lendu, so otw ke sne adalah rumah kwn kami dak dais, so ktorg amek keputusan tok menjenguk dorg setelah sekian lame tak pergi bersemuke ngn dorg hehe... umah dorg agak best r... cume kurng kipas jer... :P

sampai umh jer dah kul 1 hahah... then memg lah aku stat on9 lagi... terbaek, tdor kol 3 pagi walhal kelas kul 8.30 pagi... memg cari pasal kan?? hik3

selepas esoknye, bgun punye awal then bersiap then gerak ke umh bff aku, kila. tgu punye tgu tetibe ade org ckp kelas kencel hahah... memg terbaek lah sgt kan??? dah lah tak cukup tdor then kene g kelas awal then takder kelas lak.. memg cam haram hahah...

me n aisyhah take a decision to go to library to search for the liability cases that we didnt understand... heheh :)

cari punye cari memg tak jumper akhirnye hahha... :P

balik r umh pastu n online lagi... time on9 toe ade lah SAYANG saye on9, ktorg chat tp tak best kos dye nyer IM asyik putus2 jer... spoil mood jer... :(

tp takper asal dye kate dye sayang saya juge... :)

well its to be continued... :)

Mengaharung air memang susah,,, :P

Wahhhh semlam aku, adik aku, n kazen aku g sek tok amek bot yg my father letakkn kat citu… punyer r susah nk ke sane mengharung air… aku memakai boxer biru n baju kelabu n aku dok lam kolek moja yg ader mortar nyer… sayang seribu kali sayang kos aku nyer boxer yg baru jer dibeli terlekat ngan mortar yg ader lam kolek toe… ishhhh tak macam geram lak kan time toe??? Hahah tp takper r sabar jer r… then gerak r ke sekolah sebb nk teruskn tujuan kami tok mengambil bot ktorg… smpai jer kat kedai lek dowi, ader lah mak kepoh yg bernama mak mah… sakit aty ble dyer yg gemok toe kater aku gemok!!! Tak sedar diri ker?? Penyebok jer n dah lah tak amanah.. Sakit aty tol, kerjenye mkn hak org jerkkk… wekssss

Dah jumper bot yg my father tambatkn kat pokok pinang toe ktorg or in another word me n my brother have to take the bot n peddle it back to our house… OMG.. Its so hard to take it back because we r peddling against the current that is so strong… really hate it coz it takes a lot of our energy just to peddle.. But thankfully my bro, push the boat from behind that saves a whole lot of our energy… :)

The hardship that we have to face is really making me understand the problems that any fisherman have to get through in order to search for rizki… owh BTW the level of the flood is currently decreasing… thank god… :)

After finishing the main job for the day, I went up to the house and only ate meggi n saw the boat filled with water… only to know that the boat is already have a big hole on it… and my mum told me that it was CIK LAN that make our boat to flunk like that… I hate him sooooooo much… he is gonna get it from me someday… :(

People r saying that we have to get ready for the next 4 or 5 years to come because it will be flooded again… whut??? I dun want it… I hate it!!! Waaaaaaaa...

Hahahah… from the start that I wanna get back to malacca by this Sunday but now I'm feeling that I cant get back to malacca because of the flood… hate it...

Tuesday, february 01, 2011 (5.52 p.m)

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

The day here start with the calling of my mum, "syafiq…, syafiq…, bgn, nk ambik katil ko nie nk wat pankin.." jam 6.30 a.m… wahhh tgh sedap2 tidur kene bangun n bagi katil aku so dapt angkt barang2 n diletakkat diatasnyer… aku benci banjir!!! Sgt sgt sgt sgt benci!!! Dari jam 6 lebey smpai kol 2 p.m. aku kene berjage n berdiri diatas air yg sejuk separas peha aku… mak aihhhh serius sejuk…. Suasana pagi n harini memng best sgt… tp yg tak best nyer penat nk harung air.. Serious penat giler… kalo korunk kene mesty korunk pun tak ske… seyes… abes sume plan aku nk kuar or g memana tergadai dek air banjir yg menjadi batu opss air penghalang hahha… :P

Lepas penat angkat barang2 toe aku pun g men2 air r ngan adik2 aku hahah… sebab aku dah basah… heheh.. Yg paling best is ble aku angkat reban n kandang burung, arnab n kucing,,, heheh kelakar giler… aku rase cam nk ketawe n antar kat america's funniest home video.. Then abg gundul a.k.a jiran aku mintak tolong angkt motor dyer nek sampan kitorg yg hampir pupus toe hehe… sebb dah bocor :P
Pas settle sume yg perlu diangkat, aku g makan kat umah atas… heheh mak aku masak ayam goreng yg agak masin heheh n labu masak lemak… :P pergh sedap gile koz pas men air memng penat then dpt lak mkn, uishhh nikmatnyer tak terasa… :) syukur pada tuhan masih memberi kami sekeluarga nyawa n udara untuk dihela n dihembus… :)

Then aper g?? Pas mkn mesty r nk tdur hehehe… aku tdor ngan nyenyak sampailah cousin aku panggil , "syafiq.. Syafiq.. Mak ko suh ko kemas baju, nk pindah nie..." OMG!! Lam aty aku, aku taknk pindah… seyes menyusahkan ko tau??? Sgt2 menyusahkan!! Ngan penat lelah mengemas aku pun nek lah bot yg disediakn bapak aku tok ke seberang jalan tok naik tractor so ley gerak ke pusat pemindahan banjir… wekssssssssssssssss…. I hate that place….

Then otw ke tempat pemindahan, terserempak ngan sebuah jeep yg terbenam kat seberang jalan koz mengelak dari melanggar kereta HILUX yg grand2 letak kat tengah2 jalan nie… I hate it.. Hahhaahh… ader video nye.. T aku post kat fb n blog aku k…
Well then nite2 hehe

kepenatan berjalan membeli tiket hahah

wahhh... hari ni memg berst berjalan2 ngan kwn2 bek, afiq n kila..... tp yg bestnyer, ktorg nek bus tau hehehe... memg gamble habis-habisan sebb nak g MC carik tiket bus balik raye cine nie... erm MC toe MELAKA CENTRAL tau bkn mender len hehehe....

alhamdullilah tiket ader tp yg tak bestnyer aku nyer kad atm bimb rosak lak... habis tak ley withdraw money... :'(

penat beratur tp takley withdraw.... cam haram jerkkkk.... biarkan itu dahulu, then ktorg g MP tok makn tengahari kat SEOUL GARDEN... perghhhh kenyang n best giler kottttt.... sedap yg teramat n kalo dah sedp mesty lah hargenyer pun sedappp..

kalo mkn kat ctu. bayarannyer rm30 sumtin jer, tp yg bestnyer kiter ley amek seberaper banyk lauk yg kiter nk n masak sendiri... memg best... siap ader aiskrim lagi... memg sedap gilerrrrrrr...... saper yg g katsne memg kenyang n puas aty... heehehehe.... :)

then pas abes mkn, ktorg g tgk2 barang r kat mp... heheheh then g ke dp tok men bowling tp tak jadik so ktorg g r game corner toe... besttttt... aku men game kete lwn kila n aku ley kalah hahha... 2 kali lak toe.... then try game yg tangkap patung toe tp tak pat walau try 4 kalo ok... memg bende toe dah di set tok takkn dpt hehehe... :P...

then g men dance2 kat ctoe guk... bapak susah hahah sampai berpeluh2 aku hahha... tp memg best!!!! last sem lak kan kuar... heheheh... then ingt nk men archery p dorg taknk.... takper2 next time g lagi hehehe... :)

then ktorg balik r ke alor gajah... ngan dlm bus baper org jerk ktorg memekak hahahha.... memg terbaek... smpai alor gajah kene amek taxi kot sebb dah takder bus lagi yg akn ke uitm... hahah kopak wet rm4 sorunk, kalo 4 darab 3 brape??? korunk kire lah sendrik hehehe... :P

toe jer r aper yg aku nk share kat blog aku rini... heheh harap sok akn lebey menarik lak citer nyer ok??? c u again... :)

malam induction...

hari ni, patotnyer kene wat kerje transport pagi2 kol 10.30 tp aku tak bgn lagi, n yg konon2nye groupmate aka roommate aku nie dah bgn tp tak kejut aku tok g mandy or just get ready to go... but sbnrnye aku dah bgn just nk tgk dyer akn kejut aku ker tak... last2 tak kejut pun just ckp "matu t jumper kat umh aishah ekh??", pergh sentap guk aku kalo cmni ary2, dah toe dyer ckp camtu at 10.28 a.m pulak.... perghhh memang best lah kn kalo nk suh aku bersiap cepat lam 2 minit... skg nie aku nk lambt2 biar dorg rase... aku taknk group ngan dorg g pasnie.... :P

heheh... dah sampai mase tok induct budak part 1 td,... wahhh memng boring dorg nyer persembahan tp ble kene induct ngan ktorg, best giler... hehehehe.... memg best,... lagi2 ble aku pakse dorg ingt sejibik name aku daRi MOHAMMAD SYAIFUL SYAFIQ SABARI DIN 6B MATU heheh....

klak giler dorg td hehe... mcm2 ubh name ku ker SYAIFUL BIN SYAFIQ, SYAIFUL SYAFIQ SHAHBARI, SYAFIQ BIN SAIFUL , n mcm2 r hehehe... sungguh cute korunk sume kan??? heheheh... takper2 adik2 junior abg, abg sayunk korunk.....

heheh... malam dah nie... rasenyer dah cukup... ekhhh ader lagi, sok pas kelas ent300 nk gerak g mc carik tiket bus balik bp tok raye chine nie.... hehhe rase cam nk balik sem lak heheh... aku, kila n afiq akn g... hhehhehe mc, sedia lh trime kdtgn kamik...

:)

alam maya

wahhhh... hari ni aku memg bz ngan kehidupan sosial aku di alam maya... aku active kn sume laman sosial yg ader, facebook, twitter, myspace, friendster, tagged, skype, ym, n including blog nie gukkkk... wah sgt best lah kalo aku dpt wat sume nie ary2 heheh... :)

kepada yg terase ngan aper yg aku wat nie jgn lah yer hahahhhaaa....

haaa tp yg penting kan... aku aryni sgt terase aty ngan sumone... memg betol aper yg org kater, kalo org dari negeri itu berjumper ngan org or kwn2 dari negery yg same akn luper kwn dari negery laen... sedihhh woooohhh... tp nk wat camner kan??? hidup tak slalu nyer indah... so we have to bear it jer lahhh...

sok tak ader kelas so sok kene lah siapkn segale xsignmnt yg ader supaye time cuty t takder kerje yg akn kene wat hahah... jgn nk malas2 sgt hehehe....

Such a lousy day for me...

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

12:03 AM

Today I was supposed to be a good student hahha just wanna be a spoiled brat once in a while… my part of the day is quite good until to the evening part..

I HATED IT!!! Y do they would make me feel like I'm an outsider??? Is it me or is it just that I'm not compatible to them anymore???

It hurts me so deep that I wanted to cry out loud so they can feel my pain… but knowing them, they'll just laugh at me and ignored me… of course, u know y?? It is because they don’t even care for me, whut they only cared is LABOK!!!

I wont blame him for that, this is because that he is the one person in the house that is manly enough to be hanging around with such a lousy pussy like KELI… I hate him!!!!

If labok wanna use the laptop for the whole hour it is fine to him, but I just wanna use it for a few minutes n he started to say "matu, aku nk gune laptop, nk online..." but if it is labok using it, then he'll says "takperlah ko gune jer r.. T dah siap kc aku..."

in ^

Having to live with all this zombies is so hard u know??? I cant believed that there are people like that in this world… and it is so damn bad to meet with people like that so make sure to choose your friend wisely!!!

They're man-eating bitches that disguise themselves as human that looked good outside but in the inside is so stinks and dark!!!

It is like what people said that "don’t judge a book by its cover.."

I like to use as many idioms that I know so that I can be a knowledgeable person in the next day…

But I cant help it though, hahahah so I guess that the solution is to be as hard as u can so that I wont get hurt by them or any other vicious and bad person in the world!!!

Serious I hate him.. Not even that, he always make fun of me, saying that I'm not the same as them… those words coming out from him, the person that I hate making me feel sooooo hurt!!!!



Audio recording started: 12:16 AM Tuesday, September 28, 2010

And when I'm trying to fit in there are always obstacle from them…. Erm not then actually, but keli!!!!

He is so stupid to me!!! Pretending to be so hot and annoying at he same time… I do really annoyed with his attitude… I'm not saying that I'm perfect but there is a limit for me to accept who u r.. Dun just throw your real in front of me the one that u hate ok!!! If I told u to stop then stop, only then I wont be really bad to u…

There's a saying that "u have to respect other people first before u earn their respect..." in that case dun make people annoyed with u before they know u…

He is always saying bad things bout me, n in fact that he know I'm a sensitive person he still dare to make me feel so hurtful… people need to change or is it me that need to be tougher??? First make sure of having a lot of friend around u that is really wanna be friend with u not because that they wanted something from u or expected something from u… people nowadays cant be easily trusted or u'll get beaten by them.. They will crush and step on u like squashing an ant…

Video recording started: 12:32 AM Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I want a real friend that can help he to get out from this mess immediately!!!!!

In this jungle, the law that been used is SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST!!! Only the strong will survived n the weak will die…….. And of course that I dun want to be the weak, I will be on the top so that I can show them that I can be a better person from them!!!

today was a fairytale

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... need a break though i've really like it today... y???? because i've found the things i loved the most!!! my family n my life... people in my life were vary but most of them r nice, only sum of them that being a real badass.. hate it!!!

but i really appreciate my family sooooo much... i love my mother so much that i really wanted to die before her.. this is because i cant stand to c my parents especially my mother being buried when the time come... :(

i really wanted to gave all of my things to my family, so that they will have a better life and a good environment... i dun wanna see my parents work so hard because they r old and i dun wanna c them get sick.. i really do love them even i always do all the things that they forbid me to do,, well i am juz an adolescent guy who is still immature... hope my family can stand with me for only a few years before i can give them the thing i wanted to give so bad!!!

wish me luck!!!

shitty n lucky day

hye everybody!!!!
today i was really good at making people mad at me.... huhuhuh
really fun doing it koz i got to make them show me the real colour of themselves to me...
i need to do it koz i need to know them from the bottom of their heart... doesnt mean that i like to make them get mat with me.... hahahahah