Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Love And Affection


Second day of the week… it has been a good morning so far since I lost my bb… the environment in the office is still the same if not good then better, the workload is still the same pretty much where there are tons of work to be done… I have very good pair of eyes where I can see changes happen! Do you know what I mean? It means that I can notice the changes that any person made to themselves.

The very little things in other people eyes can be very big things in mine. Such as a simple haircut where most people tends to just ignored it or just let it pass by and not stick into their brain. And for me, this kind of habits is a blessing where it shows that I am someone who really cared about other people. Let’s get to the point where I started to brag about this habit of mine. There is a colleague of mine, here name is Wendy, and I notice that she cuts her hair yesterday. It looks nice on her and I asked he if she cut her hair or not (as in the dialogue)

Me: Wendy, you cut your hair ah?
Wendy: Ya Ya, why is it?
Me: Oh, nothing, just that you look nice in it. J
Wendy: (Tapping my shoulder) Wahhh thank you thank you, u like coffee ah? I treat u a cup of coffee      later lah… its very good. I like it… hope u like it too. 
Me: Thank you Wendy…

That is what I have been doing throughout my entire internship, looking at peoples, and seeing through, all those sort of little things that happens in life. Some people tend to irritate other while some are doing their own business without even bother on what happens to other.  Here I just want to bold and highlight that even a little thing can change someone’s attitude towards us. It shows that we do care about that person and we are giving them the attention that they need as a person and human beings that have feelings and affection.
We don’t have to be too observant towards other, but it is not wrong to show to people that we care and love them. As long as it does not bother the people around us and they are comfortable with us. Some will not give the same reaction as Wendy where they will thought that we are too busybody and always picking their nose just to bother them. Not all will give a good reaction because people are different. Even the hair is all the same but the heart is not. Bear that in mind, because there are people who will get hurt when you are saying things without considering the fragile heart of that person. If it was me, I can easily get upset but it’s just for a few hours. Is that long? Hahaha, well, I just need to calm myself before getting upset and scold that person. It is for the sake of our friendship.
Do use the golden rule “Do unto others what you want them do unto you”. This is a good phrase to use and make a principal of since it is the fundamental things that we, human wanted to be treated as. If you treated people badly, do you really think that they will treat u back nicely? Of course they don’t! This world is harsh and cruel. To be able to keep on surviving is by using our mind properly and with knowledge that can help us go through hard times.

We might encounter some people that are very rude and some that is very kind and polite, it is just the way people are. We cannot expect them to be very nice to us since they got their own personality. Simply changing other people won’t give us any advantage and do not think it as a problem but think of it as an opportunity. Use our head and think of how to deal with such people and think ahead of them, plus, it won’t hurt if we are being nice to them even if they are not very nice to us. Just like what I’d said earlier about people won’t treat us nice when we ourselves didn't treat them nicely. But certain cases where people are going to get their ego down just for the sake of the relationship, this is when love is involved.

Love is universal, so it’s not just between lovers; man and women, but also between family, friends and even animals. When I said it involved love, what I meant is that when we love someone, we will tend to get comfortable with them and forget the basic of being a human being. We tend to ignore the simple things and that simple things are actually the reason that can cause some problems. Sometimes we need to rethink and regret what we have said or done to the people we loves as it will lower or bring down our ego and this will lead to good things in the future.

Some people are too stubborn to admit their fault, and keep on blaming it to the other party. This kind of people is actually a good person; it is just that they are being strong in the presence of other people. We must understand on why they are acting like that. We may know them but we didn’t know what they have gone through in their life. Maybe they have experienced some bad things that forced them to build some wall between their selves onto others. So before we judge we must know what they have gone through their life. We might be surprise if the outcome of knowing the truth will do to us.

Sekian sahaja utk kali ini… btw, ni gambar dinner tadi utk majlis farewell kak tini n kalai, di Bangsar Shopping  Centre (Dancing Fish Restaurant)

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Kali Terakhir Aku Menyentuh mu....



10 May 2013…. It’s a date where I really cant forget.. the day started as early as 4am in the morning, I woke up earlier than that, my love called me in 3.30am just to help me awake to do my thesis… its was lovely of Mok… I loved u so much… Well, it was in the midst of an early morning and a half-awake body and mind of mine.. i think that this was the first time after so long that i woke up this early since i'm doing my internship worrying bout my thesis rather than finishing up my work in the office

Later That night, I tried to finished what I can with all my might as I didn’t even do anything for my research for the past few month… well, it was great living in new environment which is in Kuala Lumpur, the city that never sleeps as what people r telling me… the city that where people chase their dream and started new life, opening new page of the book you know.. and for me, it was a good chance for me to see the world before my own eyes… and the best things is I can see Mok every day, well, almost every day… hahaha…

Enough with the chit chat… let’s get to the point here, **continuing to the latter one, okay, now, while reading the journals and complaining myself of how stupid I am not to do the work while I have tons of time rather than doing it the very last minute, it struck me that I REALLY CAN DO WORK IN PRESSURE MUCH BETTER but, this is NOT A GOOD THING!

Tick tock tick tock n it was 6am already… well I have to be happy with what I have come up with my research… eventhough it was not finished… hahaha… I have my mental ready to be scold n bash by my advisor (no need to mention her name)… the sun starting to rise up and showering its light upon half of the world, and in my case it is in Melaka… Apartment Yayasan Melaka to be precise… when the time comes for me to start the car engines, my heart pumps like it’s going to burst out of my chest, and at that very moment I was praying to God and hoping that the day will be great and good..

I started driving from Melaka city to Alor Gajah just to meet my lovely advisor.. I know that I’ve arrived at 8.26am, well I like to be early as the appointment was supposed to be at 9am.. so I waited and waited until 10.15am like some looser and loner in the hallway… well it was sucks but I know I have to wait until she comes and scolded me for not doing my work when I was given the time.. lets skipped the boring details and the meeting was adjourned at 1.10pm later… well one thing that u should know that she did scolded me n all of us but we have to do what we have to do… but she didn’t get mad at the point I imagine she would, and for that I was happy and relieved.. :p

**Continuing my way back to Melaka City and of course skipping the Friday Prayers… (Now don’t judge me okay)**

After I parked the car (that’s belonging to my good friend Adan) I straight going up to his room and packed my belongings and getting ready to go to Melaka Central (MC) to go back to Batu Pahat (my home town). I did manage to charged my blackberry for a few minutes before he(Adan) sends me to MC, and off we go… now this is getting interesting, as soon as he dropped me in front of MC, I waved at him good bye and I realize that something was wrong! Damn Wrong!!!!!

** I lost my blackberry, and panic started to come and gets the better of me… **

I tried to call adan and asked him whether I left my blackberry in his car or even in his room, and he said after checking it through that “takdelah, I try cari lagi” i really panicking and sad at the same time…. It was purely my fault… I tried to call my celcom number that is in the blackberry.. (T__T) sumpah terasa macam nak nanges time tu… semua ade dlm tu, emails penting, gambar, video, phone number, documents, my thesis, and the most important things of all is my INTERNET!!!!

Sepanjang menungu bus utk ke balik ke BP, aku hanya mampu duduk diam n merenung kembali kesalahan aku, tulah, lalai dan clumsy… aku try utk call balik no aku tu, utk 3 kali call masih dpt then bila da masuk yg ke 4 trus masuk voicemail… mmg sgt2 lah sedih… tak sampai setahun kot aku pakai bb tu… bulan 9 ni baru nk masuk setahun… time tgu bus mmg aku hanya mampu mendiamkan diri n tahan airmata aku dari mengalir… I know, its just a phone, but this is a phone that I loved and full of my memories… tp yg agak menariknya, sebelum aku kehilangan bb aku tu, aku sempat update status kat fb, and itulah kali terakhir aku dpt pegang bb kesayangan aku… (T__T)

*in the bus*

Mamat sebelah aku ni pulak pakai bb, sepanjang perjalanan 2 jam ke bp tu aku asyik dgr bunyi2 bbm n fb dia je, mau tak sedih bile aku dgr sume sound tu bila aku punya sound da takde… sangat menahan perasaan dalam bus tu, tahan air mata dari keluar… tahan segalanya.. n kalau boleh aku nk meraun sekuat hati time tu… tp apakan daya, bende dah berlaku..

Well… mmg takde rezki lah utk aku kekal ngn bb tu… takpelah… maybe I can get a new one when I’m working nanti… hope aku tak lalai n clumsy lagi next time aku ade phone… well then, lupe nk cakap, da lama aku tak update blog… wauu… nmpknye kehilangan phone ni, mmg buat mood menulis aku keluar semula.. :P